Everything is painful. What is this in my neck, an IV? That’s painful. What is this in my hand? It’s popping out of the skin like a bulge. I… what??? Actual STAPLES inside me. I use staples to turn in my homework, not seal up a big HOLE.
I feel like I’m going to die. My heart is thudding so loud it might pop out of my chest. What is this? I can’t hear anything because my heart is pounding so loud.
Why are there tubes inside of me? There’s actually tubes inside my chest. They’re sucking excess blood from inside my chest.
I’m so uncomfortable. I’m sweating all over. Why am I so hot? I can’t move and change a position since I’m so sore, which I don’t understand? Before I went into the surgery I could at least sit up.
There’s so much plastic inside me: the chest tubes, IVs, and monitors. There’s also a lot of stuff connected to me to. There’s also bruises on my hands and arms. There’s also a big pole with tons of machines onto it. I guess that’s where all the medications are.
They want to remove my breathing tube. Did I not mention there’s a tube inside my throat? Yeah there’s a tube inside my throat. They want to remove my breathing tube while I’m conscious. And they did. They just yanked it out like tug a rope. At least I can eat and drink now.
There’s also a catheter in my urethra. So… yeah.
I’m heavily drugged, so at least I’m happy about that. I mean they’re giving me pain medication which is great (even though I still feel awful).
I pooped today. Which is great! I also sat in my room’s chair.
I’m not allowed to shower, so my hygiene isn’t that great. The nurse washed my hair with dry shampoo and water. Then the nurse wiped me down with sanitary wipes.
My chest tubes were removed today. The nurses first removed the tape, which they said was “the most annoying part since there’s a lot of them.” Removing the tape doesn’t hurt, but it does create anticipation. After the tape was removed, they yanked the tubes out. It shouldn’t be done slowly, because that creates way more pain.
They covered the holes with some gauze pads and tape.